Authentic Beauty.

if u could do it in the past i dno y u could not do it now
its all up to u
if u shan't, im not bothering anymore
tired of trying.

1:18 AM

today is a super fulfiling day man!
1st thing in the morning i did smth rly dumb
i was in the toilet-actually nt a toilet,just some place where the washing machine sits and i accidentally lifted the mop and it hit my dad's bird cage above it
guess wat.the bird cage toppled and everything in it came out -like literally dropped out
the bird shit landed on the floor and the food and water in the cage spilled
yaa most importantly,the bird flew away like OMFG?!!!
a bird let loose in my hse?!!
my mum n i panicked and we closed all possible exits dat allowed it to go back to where it came from.
i closed all the doors to our rooms for fear dat the bird is gna fly in n shit all over the room
seriously,birds gt some anal problem cos they just cant control their shit =.=
they can even shit when hey are flying luh-great multitasking skill they possess HAHA
okayy back to the bird,it flew ard in dat toilet and hid somewhere and i was tired from waiting for it to appear an went up to my room
my mum went to bathe and she tot of a wonderful idea - use apple to lure it out
ha stupid bird indeed fell for it(haha i wun fall for an apple pls hurr!) and my mum tried coaxing it to go into the cage
she did the most unbelieveable thing by telling the bird ' guai hor bird bird go in cage"
i was like WTH? u tink bird uds human language uh.somemore its 2 languages lor
oh well the 1st time,the bird went in but she was to slow to shut the cage and the bird just flew out agn.urghh irriatating bird!
being the taller one,i tried luring the bird into the cage and was whistling hoping it could uds my pleas to get inside thecage
now i feel dumb doing the whistling thing cos wat makes the bird think i want it to get into the cage =.=
budden for some reason the bird uds me and went into the cage and i shut the cage b4 it could fly off agn.
HAHAHA!strong sense of achievement.i could even catch birds wat else cant i do man!hahahhaha!
2nd thing of the day,i finally managed to clear my doubts for the biz law assignment!!!omg all thanks to yuannnnnshan.haahaha!okayy for once,i dum mind calling u the pro luh huh.one time onli uh.hahaha!
if i'm S den u muz be B.B for Bitch.hahahhaa!love ya!

Monday, February 23, 2009 .

3:55 PM

i hate liars. period.
i uds ur situation but i still cant help feeling tis way
i just feel...sad for us.
how close or distant depends on me?
i rly dun tink.u need to play a part and there are some things we cant control at all
if i could time is wat i wan for us
yea dats if i could
now it all depends on fate...

Sunday, February 22, 2009 .

4:08 PM

haha sometimes mums are the greatest frens
they rly noe wat ur thinking and yessss they haf been thru all the rebellious stuffs dat u wanna try sooo u cant fool them actually HAHAHA
sometimes they best way to get hold of things is to let go of it :)))
love u mum <333

Friday, February 20, 2009 .

9:48 PM

Just found it online.
The 4 Stages of Nonchalence

Stage 1: Initially, there are probes and actions because one bothers to.

Stage 2: With time, one learns not to probe, but one is still bothered.

Stage 3: Soon, one gets used to it and learns to ignore, even when one is bothered.

Final Stage: Eventually, one can't even be bothered.

8:18 PM

Hot and Cold

You change your mind like a girl changes clothes
yeah you PMS like a bitch i would know
and you over think always speak Cryptically
i should know that your not good for me

cause you're hot then you're cold
you're yes then you're no
you're in then you're out
you're up and your down

you're wrong when its right
its black and its white
we fight, we break up
we kiss, we make up

you, you dont really want to stay,no
but you,but you dont really want to go,oh

Cause you're hot and your cold
you're yes then you're no
you're in then you're out
you're up and you're down

We used to be just like twins, so in sync
the same energy now's a dead battery
used to laugh bout nothing, now your plain boring
i should know
that your not gonna change

Cause you're hot then you're cold
you're yes then you're no
you're in then you're out
you're up and you're down

you're wrong when its right
its black and its white
we fight, we break up
we kiss, we make up

you,you dont really want to stay,no
but you,but you dont really want to go,oh

you're hot and you're cold
you're yes then your no
you're in then you're out
you're up and your down

someone call the doctor
got a case of the love bi-polar
stuck on a roller coaster
cant get off this ride

you change your mind,like a girl changes clothes

cause you're hot then you're cold
you're yes then you're no
you're in then you're out
you're up and you're down
you're wrong when its right
its black and its white
we fight, we break up
we kiss, we make up

cause you're hot then you're cold
you're yes then you're no
you're in then you're out
you're up and you're down
you're wrong when its right
its black and its white
we fight, we break up
we kiss, we make up

you,you dont really want to stay,no
but you, but you dont really want to go,oh

cause you're hot then you're cold
you're yes then you're no
you're in then you're out
you're up and you're down

Wednesday, February 18, 2009 .

9:50 PM

sometimes i wish u could be him but i noe its nv gna be
everywhere i go i see stalks and stalks of it,im envious of them
afterall im still a gal
feel pathetic for myself cos the 1st stalk wasn't from you
smth i feel tired
consoling u when i shld be the one being consoled
how i wish i wasn't superimposing

Sunday, February 15, 2009 .

11:28 PM

u feel super touched when u noe dat ur frens care abt u
altho its those few words but it goes to show how much they care
so wat if im feeling sad or upset or down
it doesnt rly matter now cos i noe i haf my frens to go to ((:
thank you all and i rly love u all!

to peier:
sorry i hvn been taking the initiative to date u out but u still took the effort to remind me =/ hehe i noe u miss me n i miss u lots tooo.thanks for being there whenever i feel like swearing at some bitch.hahha!

to yiling:
haha i nv forget u la.of cos ur someone can talk to whenever i face rls probs and whenver i wanna scold ppl,ur definitely someone i will tell.haha thanks for being there during difficult times :)) and when are we meeting up huh?!!!

to yuannshan:
thanks for always being there for me,be it in rls or frenship u always nv forget me.thanks for the sunflower and its the 1st flower i ever rcv so im fraking touched.haha ur my 1st love gal!((:anddd we shld start to meet up to go shopping.its been like ages since we shopped.hahaha!i promise to get a cam asap so we can camwhore!:D

to tianxiang:
altho i hvn been telling u everything dat angers or upsets me,i still wun forget dat ur still there for me.and yes im always here to listen soo feel free to tell me anythingggg .. its been long since i read the book ((:

to jinsheng:
thanks for ur advice and ur ear and sorry for all the vulgarities dat came out of my mouth accidentally.haha!aiya i also dno wat else to say.u noe i noe la.hahha!

alrights altho i haf 3 tests like next week,there's no better time to thank my frennsss.
awww if onli i ca marry all my frens and they can make me happy alwayssss HAHAHA!

Friday, February 13, 2009 .

1:03 AM

fuck im feeling like shit now
damn it i hate to be sandwiched in btw
yes i noe ur wan the best for me but do u noe i dun feel anything close to best
ur just impose wat u wan for me but its not wat i wan
on the other hand,u dno wats im feeling
ur always scared
scared of this scared of dat den me leh
u need time yes i noe but do u noe dat the more time u take the more i haf to be sandwiched
wah finee everyone is selfish damn it
wah i feel like slapping u the next moment u open ur mouth agn

alrights enuff of rantings
im glad brain is ard to cool me down HAHAHA

Tuesday, February 10, 2009 .

8:52 PM

it felt so real
i wana hear what i wanna hear from u a pity im not a guy if not i can win the heart of gals le
oh well...

Sunday, February 08, 2009 .

1:21 AM

afternoon's captain's ball training at NTU left me wif a super red face
i shld haf applied sun tan lotion b4 trg la
oh trg reminds me dat i hvn been running for like 1 whole year or so and my stamina is freaking like shit
cant believe it dropped so much
yeaa i promise to run everyday anddddd
i shld build up on my passes urghh losuy shitt =/
just hope i can train up well enuff so dat i wun pull the whole team down yeaa ((:

well...everything need effort
competitions,frenships and rls, it all applies
wif perseverance tgt wif effort,nth is impossible :D