i noe that wadeva i said may not register to u now but i hope u can cool down and listen to my explanation.
its not all about ur Ns life so dun blame Ns for it.If anything,i guess u haf to thank Ns cos it somehow made u cherish me more than before but i guess ur still back to who u are.I dun blame u for that cos i tink i cant force ppl to change just cos i asked them to unless events mould u to become a better bf.Ns makes u tired and fed-up and all but im not referring to the lack of care n concern everyday in camp but to the weekends that u go out with me.i dun need exceptional performance to show that u care,just small actions will do cos it will make a big difference.but i guess u just took chances for granted and tink i will keep forgiving u and let u repeat the same mistake again.if u cherished the chance i gave u,u would nt haf the heck care attitude.of cos u can say im not being fair to u by nt telling u its the last chance im giving u,but i noe dat if i tell u,u would haf been very good to me just for tis chance and be back to who u are after dat.

U say im not understanding?if im not,then ur last chance would haf come earlier and nt till now.I can safely say for sure that i understand u more than u understand me.So tell me in wat ways am i not understanding?

it was quite hurting to noe that u felt it was an obligation to call me at night and not cos u wanted to.so whats the point of changing now cos u wld say its an obligation just to please me huh?i dun need obligations luh,seriously.

u dun feel loved uh?then wat abt me?mebbe my lack of initiative-ness made u feel less loved so im sorry for dat.i dun agree when u say i showed more care n concern in the past.how to show more care n concern in the past when i wasn't even ur gf to begin with and besides,u showed me more care when i wasn't ur gf please.tell me how ironic it is.so we might as well remain as frens n at least i wld get the basic care n concern from u.the fact that i say such things does not justify the fact i dun love u but it just shows that i jaf reached my limit of giving u chances n forgiving u again and again.put urself i my shoes and tell me if i did enuff for u la.if i nv gave a shit about u,i wld not have bothered giving u so many chances.

one last thing to note is that i nv said gg out with u was boring.i dun care what u tell the others abt me just as long u dun put words into my mouth.it was sudden i admit but u shld haf known tis would come if u nv treasured the chances i gave u.